It gets madder and madder..
I should be sleeping…and resting my poor, failing eyesight but nay, I – having killed all other internet options – am blogging..which, if I am honest is mostly borne out of jealously due to seeing my friends super awesome new post with fucking awesome paint-drawings of mad-cats lady lifestyle here.
I am worried I am starting to suffer from Somniphboia but to be honest it is probably just the five-year old me putting its foot down. it wins with the ‘feed me chocolate all the time’ demands..why not go one step further and resist bedtimes?
*inserts pictures I have badly drawn on paint here. I have the ideas, just not 4 hours to spend on it*
I feel guilty when I do not sleep, mostly as I share my bed with lovely, snoring, pillow and side-of-bed stealing Boyfriend. He does not sleep properly if I am not there (altogether now..awwwwh!!) and as I am such a bitch during the day I feel that I owe it to him to try and be kind at night.
It seems I have to dilute my life into child-ahppy chunks and metaphors at the moment. I thought I was supposed to begin maturing once I got properly into my twenties, not retreat into sand-box playing mode…oh, I miss those days…
I have been writing, as you all know. I may even be kind enough to post my poem on my blog but only IF the Master poeple do not turn me away on -account of my long term folly in ‘mental health land’.
How would you make a young child do you bed? Maybe I should replicate that with myself? According to – Empowering Parents
The focus should be on your child learning how to manage himself through meeting his responsibilities and not on your child learning to manage you through power plays.
Am I power playing myself? I guess so..but I am no good with responsibility.
That is me just mooching about, writing blogs at 2.40 am and wondering if I have things to do in the morning…
and then you ask me to go and lye down in a dark room. which is scary. and now they are saying it is because I need to take responbility for myself…
this is me when I hear the word responsibility…
A List Of Responsible Stuff Ifail at:
Having my own house
Cleaning self – please see this post not the same as showering
Going to bed
Getting up when I do go to bed
Having a job
Not bein mad
So as I do not like and fail at responsibliy I’ll look at another option..
The Mayo Clinic say this
The scenario: It’s bedtime, but your child fusses about going to sleep because he or she doesn’t want to miss anything.
The solution: If your child can hear talking, laughing, or sounds from the computer or TV, it’s easy to see how he or she would feel left out. To ease the transition to bedtime, keep things quiet during the last hour before bedtime. Keep the TV out of your child’s room. Put away noisy games and toys. Turn off the TV, computer and video games throughout the house. Dim the lights. Limit the entire family to quiet activities, such as reading books or doing puzzles. Sleep may be more appealing if everyone slows down before bedtime.
No, everyone else is upstairs.
I am the sole one awake.
The tv is off. i was knitting earlier, thats akin to a puzzle? I read a book? Eh. I suck at this.
I aspire towards this:
The Boyfriend just did it normal 3am wake-up for a sandwich. I imagine he will drag me to bed. Yay for moaning about responsibility and then the Boyfriend turning up so I do not have to do it my myself. ( and this was me being kind to him? OOOppps)